The Fugitive(女逃亡者)
〔French〕Marcel Proust
Chapter 1 Grief and Oblivion
"Mademoiselle Albertine has gone!" How much farther does anguish
penetrate in psychology than psychology itself! A moment ago, as I
lay analysing my feelings, I had supposed that this separation
without a final meeting was precisely what I wished, and, as I
compared the mediocrity of the pleasures that Albertine afforded me
with the richness of the desires which she prevented me from
realising, had felt that I was being subtle, had concluded that I
did not wish to see her again, that I no longer loved her. But now
these words: "Mademoiselle Albertine has gone!" had expressed
themselves in my heart in the form of an anguish so keen that I
would not be able to endure it for any length of time. And so what
I had supposed to mean nothing to me was the only thing i…